The meaning of Coos Keech
I didn't see much of the ex last night which I think is probably for the best.It's been 2 months since her "it's not working" speech.At first I blamed myself for being a net/laptop/poker addicted idiot who had blown a good relationship, yet the more thought I give it ,the more I realise I hadn't been happy either for a long time.Being a lazy git, I'd settled into a kind of comfort zone that wasn't easy to give up,especially as giving it up would mean not seeing Step A and Nacho as often as I'd like.
I do regret not working harder to keep the spark going longer, and the quote from Cool Hand Luke "What we have here is a failure to communicate",seems very apt.( and I think we're both to blame for that).I'd never been in a seven year relationship before and I think a big part of me just accepted that perhaps the way were were was just how "everyone" is after such a lengthy time together.
Maybe it just came down to a lack of passion as we very rarely ever argued about anything and as I mentioned before there was very little difference in our interactions during the first couple of weeks after our split compared to our pre-split state.
There is no doubt that I probably do spend too much time online one way or another.I need to ensure that I remember there's far more to life when I move back home and I need to push myself to step out of my comfort zone more often too.
After a day/week of dealing with complaining maniacs I'm not always in a very sociable mood.I've never been a big drinker either ( last alcoholic drink was on holiday back in June)and although I loved dance music and the occasional clubbing excursion, I've never really been a pub person.Having said that, the ex and I managed to spend nearly a month abroad every year over the last 5-6 years and had plenty of nights out.
To the poker and I played a little ABC full ring $50nl last night as I watched some crappy driving programme and one on Abby Titmus which was equally pish.( broke even at the poker)
I decided to play a few wee Headsup $5.25 games and ( no boring bad beat stories here!) was rivered three games running to go crashing out.I stuck to my game plan and managed to finally win a wee 4 player headsup shootout which was a minor relief.
Ok,thanks for reading and for anyone reading yesterdays post and unsure of exactly what coos keech is I thought I'd include this highly technical video clip to explain...