Little Fluffy Clouds

I hate whiney posts but this is my space and if I’m feeling like crap then this is where I’m going to let it out.Actually I’ve not been feeling great for a while.I think I get cycles where every 6-8 weeks I’m on a real downer for a while.Most of the time I’m my usual self but I can’t deny the darkness does occasionally descend.Probably due to stress and lack of sleep and hopefully next months holiday will go some way to recharging my batteries.I mentioned I hate whining and I do.There’s plenty of people suffering real hardships and from terrible diseases and I think that makes me more even more annoyed at myself for not being happier with my lot.

After Rangers lost on Sat I fell out bigtime with Mrs A on Sunday, after she had a few beers and started telling me I play too much poker ,and that when I’m sat with her on the settee I’m not really with her because I’m chatting to friends on IM.As mature reasonable adults we immediately initiated a sensible discussion on the matter and all is now well.( err ok we’ve hardly spoken since!).


Not sure how I feel about all this to be honest.I certainly wasn’t going to discuss it anymore on Sunday night as I hate the way Mrs A gets after a few drinks.She has alcoholism in her family and drink just seems to bring out her nasty side.After her Mum died at the end of April I tried hard to be there for her but ( understandably) she mostly wanted to be alone to deal with it.She’s been on prozac now for a couple of months and at first I was pleased because it seemed to lift her mood and helped restore her sleeping patterns to normality ,however now it seems she is either on a fake speed type high or is in an even lower mood than before with not much inbetween.


She said she reckoned I would be happier on my own and the way things are going I’m beginning to wonder if she has a point.Even if we do work through this we can probably never have kids and though I love Step A to bits it’s scary to think that Mrs A could just finish with me anytime and I may not see much of the wee one afterwards.( though I ‘d demand weekend custody of Nacho!).

We’ll probably talk it over and compromise which is afterall what relationships are all about but as we approach 7 years together I’m wondering if we’re gonna make 8.


To the poker and playing a few turbo sng’s with Miami Mark was a welcome distraction even though I bubbled in one and suffered a few suckouts in others.I did double my $25 buy in on my first hand at a cash table to cover my costs at Pokerroom which helped.


Late last night though I was stung badly at a full ring $50 nl table.I don’t usually play full ring but decided that as I was very tired I’d play some before bed.I had AK in the bb and called a 2bb raise from a tight player along with another player who’d already played quite a few pots in my short time at the table.Bottom line was I hit my K on the flop and bet out first ,the original raiser folded and the other looser player took my buy in with a flopped set.There was a flush draw on the flop which missed and I put him on that draw or a weak K.( QK,JK etc).


I rebought and was just about to log off when I get AhQh in the cut off ( same orbit as AK hand).There were a couple of limpers and I was initially tempted to limp too, after being badly stung moments earlier,but it’s all about playing correctly, so I made a 5bb raise which was only called by the same Mr Set who’d taken my last stack.Flop was an A 9 2 rainbow and I ( trying not to let the last hand affect me) bet $7 into a $9 pot,representing the Ace I had and looking to take it down without any fuss.Mr Set called, which worried me, and I started to think he had another set but was more likely to have the Ace and had maybe hit his kicker on the flop .A queen on the turn convinced me I was ahead and once again I got my money in the pot thinking I was ahead only to fall to his second flopped set ( two’s this time) against me in a matter of minutes.


Afterwards I felt I had a good read on what he had and had simply been unlucky but after some thought I realised I’d only been at the table 5 mins, and it wasn’t a read I had at all but an optimistic guess at his cards, especially on the AK hand where I needed more information on the villain to have any idea where I stood.Can’t complain at all about the way the villain played the hand as I’d have done exactly the same.


The second one was perhaps just bad timing and hard to get away from after the turn but after a nice winning week last week I’m a bit annoyed at finding myself over $100 in the hole already this week.


Switched off ,dropped my favourite glass ashtray ( smashed!) and went off to bed.Between all that and my car overheating again on motorway runs, so far it’s not the best of months in Acorn land.


I am looking forward to Rangers playing Molde at Ibrox on Thursday night though.The authorities are trying to sanatize football and take all the swearing etc out of the game but I’ve always been fairly vocal ( “ref ,I’ve pointed out your mistake twice now,I don’t think your listening” etc) but I’m looking forward to a much improved Gers performance and a chance to let off some steam.( and probably get arrested the way my week has gone so far!).

Just had a long chat with my sister and I'm feeling a bit chirpier after it.

If you made it through all that twaddle then congrats! Back with more later in the week...