Not Afraid

Well it looks like Step A may not be moving to England after all as her Mums boyfriend doesn't want her there.The fact that her Mum ( an ex of mine)hasn't already dumped the prick and moved back up the road just makes me wonder how it's possible to be with someone for so long ( 7 1/2 yrs) without really knowing their true character.Anyway I'm looking forward to meeting the wee one for lunch tomorrow and to taking her to meet my new nephew.

There's not much else really going on at the moment.As per a previous post I've cut right back on my weed smoking.Everyone always knows someone who can drink anyone else under the table and I suppose when it came to weed I was that guy,getting through an oz per month and rarely not enjoying a smoke when I had the chance.Being off work sick for so long,smoking most nights and still feeling tired the next day even after 10 hours sleep made me realise there was no way I could carry on in the same way and expect to keep going to work without being zombie tired everyday.

Before my accident it had become a bit of a vicious circle of having a horrible day dealing with complaints at work,smoking to de-stress and to forget about my day and then struggling further the next day due being up too late and being foggy minded.I'm still cherry picking complaints from a sheet and not being allocated 5 per day so it will be more of a test of my resolve in the coming weeks, but in truth I've not missed it much and have felt much better for it too.Running out of weed and turning down a "bit for a joint" also told me I really don't need a puff to get through life.That's not to say I won't still be lighting up at weekend or enjoying trips to the Dam to get wrecked!

Not smoking has also helped my KD ( Kills/Deaths) ratio on Call of Duty which is always a bonus! I also won a couple of sngs on Party last night and with a bit of "run good" hopefully I can be back at the $22's soon.Barely playing a hand over the last few weeks has helped clear my mind of the constant negative feelings being on a downswing brought and hopefully I can motivate myself to stop playing as much COD and get back to making some decent hobby money at the tables!

Music wise my downstairs neighbour gave me a copy of Eminem's new album ( yeah us nearly 38yr olds still call 'em albums) and it's a definite return to form."Not Afraid" and "Space Bound" are my two favourite tracks from it.Strange really as I was never a fan of rap/hip hop, but "The Slim Shady LP" got me hooked and I loved "The Marshall Mathers LP" too.Anyway enjoy "Not Afraid"...

Gies a swatch...

Start time is 9pm Sunday....

If there was a coughing and spluttering Olympic event, I reckon I would have taken the gold medal over the last week.I ended up staying off work and spent most of it watching crap tv and playing just a little poker.I also scored some lovely solid late in the week and the brain fuzz aint helping me write this post!

The s-man was over last night for a lengthy session of Fallout 3 on the PS3.The game is huge and quite unlike any I've ever played before with it's interactive FPS style.We had a good laugh too,reminiscing about our early days of scoring weed in shady pubs where the main dude thought nothing of whipping out a set of scales and doing the deal on the table in front of him.( having a shotgun under the table probably helped him feel at ease!)

I played a few $16's when the s-man left and finished up about $150 from 9 games.It's not been a bad month so far at the felt, although as usual I've been far too lazy to put in any real volume.I did have a go at the $26,45 man games on Full Tilt and ran horribly,going 15 games before I finally cashed.( and even those cashes were a frustrating 3rd and 4th) I'm not done with them yet though and will give them another go soon.

Apologies to Matty and Betfare ( bloggy player,not the site)re moving the Brit Blogger game from Sunday to Friday as it didn't happen this week as planned.I'll email the guy that sets them up again after Sundays game and hopefully we can relaunch the Brit Blogger game on Fridays and get a few more players.


Dinner,fitba and poker tonight.Oh and there's also still time to win more on the lottery ( 3 winning tickets from 10 last week!) using Mr Edge's fine new system.No idea how it works but it's seems to be profitable.Maybe I just ran good for once...


Loved this wee clip from "Chewin' the Fat".For any non Scots here this link from the urban dictionary may help...

Champagne Supernova

Someone asked me recently after reading my profile if I really smoke weed.The answer is I do,plenty of it and have done for years.On the flip side although I enjoy a beer,I'm almost tee-total and don't recall the last time any alcohol passed my lips.After being off work last week I decided this was the week to cut down on my puffing and I'm pleased to say I've managed it and feel much better for it.The lack of herb is probably one of the reasons I've not played much poker as I'm so used to rolling one up and tuning into the game.Perhaps I'll now become a ranting chatbox maniac! This cutting back lark won't apply to the weekend though so ...roll on!

I only played one game last night and unfortunately bubbled a $22 turbo at Party.I had spent the earlier part of the evening chatting to Rosie and watching the Germans clinically dispose of Portugal in the first quarter final of Euro 2008.

Looks like I'm moving to a new team at work this Monday.I quite like my current seat as most of the people round me are good fun and help make the day go by more quickly.

There is one mood hoover I won't be sad to get away from as the only time she stops looking gloomy is when we hear her "giggle of doom", which she usually manages after spreading bad news."Ooooh they're taking our flexi-time away heeheehee".We do have a laugh in the team joking that the River Clyde ( which our building overlooks) rises by a few inches everytime this rather large mood hoover visits the toilet....

I've got Nacho until Sunday and tomorrow I'm popping across to help my Mum and Dad clear out their new house.I've enjoyed not playing much poker this week although I'm also looking forward to getting back to turbo sng land this weekend and hopefully making some dosh.

I did call my Mum earlier re times for tomorrow and had to call back as she had a big stack and was on the bubble of a $16 turb.She called me back to say she'd won and that the villain she'd beaten told her she was very tough to play against! My Mum took great delight in telling Mr/Mrs 2nd place that she was just an old lady who liked to play!! That got a "lol" apparently...

Ok, don't forget Kats $1 Re-buy donkament on Full Tilt tonight at 2am UK time for anyone up late.Password is Donkarama.

Where were you while we were getting high....

Ups n Downs

Mrs A called last night for the first time since she went away on holiday with Step A.A few factors had led me to believe we may be able to make another go of it, but I think I now realise that's not going to happen.

We got on brilliantly last week,we're still helping each other out ( lifts to work,sandwiches getting made etc),she's not told many of our friends and even her friend from two doors down is giving it another go with her man.

After a long friendly chat last night I asked if we could talk about us when she returned and got the frosty answer that there was "not much to talk about".
I've been keeping my spirits up and that came as a bit of a blow and probably brought me back to reality.I've still not been sleeping well and have been going to bed later and later to avoid lying awake going over it all.

I also let it affect my poker last night, as just after that phone call I lost a buy-in at Laddies when my flopped set lost to a flopped flush.I then lost another when I called a raise with KQ at a very loose table,hit my Queen and slow played my way into trouble, by letting the villain catch 2 pair with his 45off.I read his preflop raise as not being strong and didn't believe his continuation bet but I was too weak to reraise with my Queen and push him out of the hand.

I did win back $15 at that table before leaving and also won $30 at a juicy full ring Full Tilt table where I felt I was back to playing near my best.I can slip into a very passive mode too easily but was alive to any opportunity at that table.I especially enjoyed floating with JQ sooted and bluffing the scarey river card.When the villain typed "river" in the chat box before folding I managed to resist showing and blowing my tight image.

Dinner tonight at my Mum and Dads and I'm thankfully off work tomorrow.It's not easy dealing with complaint letters to the company directors, with people writing about minor incidents being " disgraceful and stressful" or "ruining my life" when I feel like shouting "Let me tell you what's feckin stressful!".

Ok here's a couple of funnies from the paper to finish with and brighten up this post..

A reader wonders whether the flooding in England means that all those successful dart throwers who won the grand final on Jim Bowen's Bullseye programme all those years ago have finally managed to get some use out of the speedboats they won.

Meanwhile, internet interest grows on plain-speaking airport worker John Smeaton who tackled one of the airport terrorists then explained in interviews: "This is Glasgow. We'll just set aboot ye," which is now being produced on T-shirts in America.

John also described the scene as like when you throw a can of deodorant on a bonfire.

Only in Glasgow, one suspects, do folk think nothing of throwing inflammable containers on fires to see what happens.

Oh and to the person who found my blog after searching for "where do I score weed in Majorca?" may I suggest those friendly African guys that wander the beaches selling sunglasses.Just a thought ;-)